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I used to be a wattpad user. Why used to?
Let's just say I was the type of person who wanted to hop on the bandwagon just to look cool.
I thought I could express myself through my stories without any bad stuff loading itself onto my shoulders. Well, I was an idiot with way too idealistic views.
My stories weren't like the usual ones, made by boy-obsessed hormonal teen girls with their fanfics about marrying or making love to their idols. I'm not saying they're horrible people, and I'm better than them, I'm just saying my stories were so out of place.
Needless to say, my stories didn't have lots of views nor comments, even the funny ones. My friend would keep pointing out that she read my stories like they were trying-too-much-to-be-funny-and-serious, I felt so embarrassed. And while honestly, my stories had some lemons and smut in them, I was at least making the characters involved in these scenes actually feel some connection to each other (though to be fair, they were way too detailed, up until now, I'm ashamed of them).
I remembered when my teacher (he's one of those cool teachers who chats with the class) said that wattpad was the worst place to start your writing potential, well mostly because of the bad grammar you could find there. I should've taken his advice (then again, I also had to take his advice in math, so I focused on that more).
To be honest, I only made this dA account so that I could be able to comment on stuff (and yes, also to see naughty art, don't judge me, we all want to at least once in our lives), I wasn't even considering showing my own art because I thought, wait scratch that, I still think I'm a shitty artist (what you think is up to you, this is opinion based here).
But when it became clearer and clearer to me that I wouldn't receive the satisfaction of recognition as an artist, I decided to go all "Ah fuck it, wattpad's useless, it's just gonna be overrun by hormonal teens". Even though I'm not really that popular here, I at least feel the safety from having my shitty stories being judged by people I know IRL (don't judge me for using shortened terms, it's really painful to type when you've been doing it for a long time without resting).
So now I'm here, with my bad drawings on display, at least I'm safe from the judgemental eyes of my peers.
Let's just say I was the type of person who wanted to hop on the bandwagon just to look cool.
I thought I could express myself through my stories without any bad stuff loading itself onto my shoulders. Well, I was an idiot with way too idealistic views.
My stories weren't like the usual ones, made by boy-obsessed hormonal teen girls with their fanfics about marrying or making love to their idols. I'm not saying they're horrible people, and I'm better than them, I'm just saying my stories were so out of place.
Needless to say, my stories didn't have lots of views nor comments, even the funny ones. My friend would keep pointing out that she read my stories like they were trying-too-much-to-be-funny-and-serious, I felt so embarrassed. And while honestly, my stories had some lemons and smut in them, I was at least making the characters involved in these scenes actually feel some connection to each other (though to be fair, they were way too detailed, up until now, I'm ashamed of them).
I remembered when my teacher (he's one of those cool teachers who chats with the class) said that wattpad was the worst place to start your writing potential, well mostly because of the bad grammar you could find there. I should've taken his advice (then again, I also had to take his advice in math, so I focused on that more).
To be honest, I only made this dA account so that I could be able to comment on stuff (and yes, also to see naughty art, don't judge me, we all want to at least once in our lives), I wasn't even considering showing my own art because I thought, wait scratch that, I still think I'm a shitty artist (what you think is up to you, this is opinion based here).
But when it became clearer and clearer to me that I wouldn't receive the satisfaction of recognition as an artist, I decided to go all "Ah fuck it, wattpad's useless, it's just gonna be overrun by hormonal teens". Even though I'm not really that popular here, I at least feel the safety from having my shitty stories being judged by people I know IRL (don't judge me for using shortened terms, it's really painful to type when you've been doing it for a long time without resting).
So now I'm here, with my bad drawings on display, at least I'm safe from the judgemental eyes of my peers.
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